confession #000002

... or, apple versus cupcake

last night, i had quite a restless night.  i could easily attribute it to the thunderstorms raging outside and making a complete and utter urban wasteland of the maltese islands.  but i've decided i shall attribute my restlessness on the fact that i was plotting my revenge on myself, in terms of diets, of course. 

i decided it was time to get back on track yesterday morning actually.  going through almost each and every single item in my wardrobe, tut-tutting at it while still on the hanger, tut-tutting even more while trying it on, i decided that tomorrow (i.e, today) won't be another 'failed diet monday'.  and so while yesterday i allowed myself a few final binges, this morning i woke up very (tired but) resolute to start the week well and see the diet and exercise combo through.  

so this morning, i weighed myself and found that i have gone back up to 52kgs (if this is going to be a set of confessions, i might as well just come clean about it all!) this might not sound like much to many out there, but when taking into consideration my short stature, it becomes rather heavy.  according to this body-mass index calculator, i'm at a normal weight with a 23.7 score, albeit at the high end of the range.  

pretty much what i looked like this morning, panda-eyes and all!

full of good intentions and well-made plans, i packed my workout gear, and trudged off to work with the objective of not nibbling at junk food and heading straight to the gym after office hours.  

and by gosh! i managed to accomplish it all ... and i've got my sore legs to prove it! 50 minutes of cardio is not too, too bad as a start ... though this needs to increase and intensify very, very soon if i want to accomplish the goals i've set for myself (i might let you in on those in another post ...)

i must confess that i did have a bit of 'pit fall' towards the day's end as you'll see further down, but i managed to resist the left-over cupcakes sitting snugly in the tupperware on the kitchen counter.  allow me to pat myself on the back for a few minutes.  

today's menu (the lazy busy girl's deal):

• special k with light soy milk
• special k bar 
• apple
• vegetable biryani microwave rice (not so good, i know, but i left all my other tupperware at the office so i couldn't prepare anything!)
• tinned mexican tuna salad + some of the left over home-made bread (this is my pitfall - i should have had some greens with the tuna, or at least some tomatoes, but i was so damn tired after my workout, even opening the fridge was an ordeal!)

my homemade bread at the weekend - the photo is cleverly hiding the chunks of brie in between the bread slices ... 

i am aware of the fact that i need to increase my intake of fruit and actual fresh food, rather than pre-packed/cooked bull-poop.  that's something i'm working on ... i promise, to myself, and to you dear reader.